My Lifes Journey through 2023-24

scenic view of the forest during sunrise

On Jan 26th, 2023, I was in an accident. I had my head turned while my friend was driving.  We were hit from behind in a roundabout. I developed whiplash. I had pain and tightness in my neck & back of my head. Went through four months of physical therapy. Which is why I stopped writing. Looking down was very painful.


That started off the year, thankfully, pt helped, and God used that experience to teach me the value of rest. Then, at the end of May, I started looking at homes on Zillow in a different area. Being on staff at church and my husband on the worship team, it made sense to move, plus we both wanted to be closer to our friends & church.


We found a home that met the requirements we talked about. We called our realtor, who was wonderful in helping us through the process. Although it took two months to get an offer on our house. We finally got a cash offer with a closing in three weeks. Our friends helped us pack and move an entire house. Approximately 3000sq ft home into a 1520 sq ft with a basement. There was no time to decide what to give or throw away, but God was with us the whole way with all the stress of ups & downs of selling and moving a home. We moved in August 2023.

I had been feeling tired more than I ever have. My theory has always been pushing through no matter how you feel. It has worked for me up until this year.
Although I’ve lived with pain all my life, this year felt different. I felt exhausted, which is not me. I blamed it on packing & moving, menopause & my thyroid. In May, before the move, I had a biopsy on a mole come back basal cell, but with moving, I put the surgery off until October 11th. The basal tumor was on my chest they removed it and sent it off to pathology. After two weeks of stitches and on the removal day, I was told pathology found something, and they needed to do more smears. Oh, ok. No big deal. I have had basal cell cancer three times now, so it wasn’t a big deal.

I was supposed to get a mammogram in May, too, but I put it off. I have been putting it off for four years. So, since my pathology report was taking time, I thought it was ok to get your mammogram & bone density done. So, my appointment was Nov. 7th Mammogram came back enlarged left lymph nodes, so they scheduled an ultrasound, no big deal I have had that before.
Ultrasound showed 4 suspicious malignancy meaning (very suspicious). As the radiologist was talking, I let her know I was waiting for the pathology report on the basal tumor removed. They scheduled a lymph node biopsy for Nov 30th. The next day after the ultrasound, I contacted the dermatologist, Dr., who removed the small tumor. It came back as lymphoma but due to the small amount of tissue they could not determine what type.

Being clueless I said so that means then it is not cancer. But I was wrong. It is cancer. Two days later, I got a call from the skin Dr asking me to please make an appointment with a hematologist/oncologist. I was going to wait but my daughter who works for my family practitioner also was insistent.
The oncologist office would have seen me on Nov 20th but I wanted to wait till the biopsy was done.

Nov 30th, I had the left lymph node biopsy they took 4 biopsy’s and left a sand size titanium marker. My appointment with Dr. S was Dec 4th. My daughter didn’t go because we didn’t think he would have any reports. But he did he had contacted the pathologist who gave him a preliminary report. Yes, it is a low-grade (slow growing) lymphoma B-cell.
Dr S. ordered a Pet-scan, which was Dec 11th.

The pet scan showed it in my neck, chest, abdomen, and pelvis.
My appointment with Dr. S was scheduled for the 18th, but I called, and they saw me on the 13th. The cancer is Lymphoplasmacytic Lymphoma called Waldenstrom Macroglobulinemia. He said it was stage 3b. He ordered a 24-hour urine test and a bone marrow biopsy, which was on January 8th, 2024.

The bone marrow biopsy came back with either marginal zone lymphoma or lymphoplasmacytic lymphoma. The Dr believes it is Lymphoplasmacytic lymphoma because my biopsy from the lymph node had enough tissue to get a specific diagnosis. My treatment is Bendka and Rituxan. Two times every four weeks for six months. But first a Port Cath was put in on Jan 31st and my first treatments were Tuesday Feb 6th and 7th. Today I am doing well just a few side effects. I have a great support system of family, friends and Church.

I know God will bring me through this and heal my blood & lymph nodes from cancer. Thankfully, it is not in my organs. With all that said I would encourage you to trust God in whatever situation you are walking through. I believe in miracles and healing. I know He promises in His word Isaiah 43 tells me he will get me through to the other side. We do not always know all the answers of why, but we can learn to trust God to provide and help us through whatever it is we face.

Since I started this post in Jan it is now July 2024 and God brought me through treatments I ended treatment the beginning of May. Thankfully, I only had to do 4 months of treatment to be in remission.  Trusting God through it all.

How Can You Be Thankful In A Pandemic?

How can you be thankful in a pandemic? That is a good question. Why is it a good question? Because thankfulness is an essential quality that helps one to persevere in tough times.

Living life in everyday situations can be difficult on a normal basis but throw a pandemic with a virus of strange origin, unable to view and tell when and how it is transmitted caused incalculable anxiety, fear and uncertainty.

So then why should we be thankful. Thankfulness is an attitude of gratitude. No matter how bad life gets and for some it has been extremely bad but somehow and some way there is something to be grateful for. Gratitude lifts our spirit and brings emotional wellbeing.

Even if you are not a child of God being thankful is beneficial for your wellbeing and mental health. By now if you have been following or read a few of my blog posts you recognize I am a Christian and love God. His word tells us to be thankful for and to God. I practice thankfulness daily. I say please and thank you because I genuinely appreciate when someone does something for me. I choose to be thankful and so can you.

Perhaps your struggling with the many difficult restrictions since the pandemic started as is everyone. Pick one thing to be thankful for and express it. You can write it out, express it to God and others not just on Thanksgiving but every day. I am thankful for a lot of different things. My husband came through a difficult surgery it had complications and he was in ICU for many days, but God provided throughout that time and I am so thankful for the prayers and encouragement we received.

I am thankful for the grace to do everything I need to do as my husband recuperates and for the time we get to spend together. I am also thankful for my family and friends I have great friends and family that I so appreciate their love and kindness. My church family is also something I am thankful for. I could go on and on, but you get the picture by now.

I could list all our troubles and setbacks but that only produces more stress and anxiety and truthfully every day holds a new day of challenges, but God also supplies daily mercy and grace. So why focus on the challenges or troubles. I am sensible I know and express my emotions and process hurts but I choose to let go of what I cannot solve or fix. How do I do it through processing and surrendering to God. I trust God to work out my problems and supply solutions when and where I need them.

Choosing to be thankful for the little and important things will help you through this pandemic and throughout life.

How to be a Kinder You…

What is kindness? It is a simple question but is it experienced by you daily? According to the dictionary kindness means “the quality of being friendly, generous, and considerate.” This month is Thanksgiving in the United States and so often we focus on what we are thankful for. But would it not be better to be somebody is thankful for. Meaning your act of kindness expressed in a manner that the individual receiving is surprised and thankful for the act of kindness.

I realize this year comes with uncertainty and hardships but we all can end the year 2020 with a ‘kinder you.’ How is kindness expressed? I believe through acts or services that help or bless someone else. Whether it is a random act or a planned act it still has a positive effect on someone. There are many ways to show kindness, such as a card letting someone know you are thinking of them, a phone call, text or message. These are simple but beautiful ways to express acts of kindness.

Handmade or store-bought items can lift a person’s spirit and let them know they are cared for. Another type of kindness can be monetary or services that helps someone in need. In a time of uncertainty people need kindness. I have seen cranky individuals crack a smile when a baby giggles or smiles at them. It is just proof to me that even the hardest of hearts wants somebody to be kind.

Since most of us remain wearing masks it is difficult to see the smiles. But you can smile through your mask and people will sense it. Let’s all be a ‘kinder you’ this season and share kindness wherever you are however you can.

Sneaker Day

This is the day the Lord has made I will rejoice in it and be glad.  I went to my follow up Dr. appointment today.  It went well.  Dr. is very happy with the implant being healed and settled in placement.  My color is good, and the incision looks great.

He said I can wear my sneaker at home but in public wear the boot for three more weeks.  Plus, no more crutches or walker.  Now I can start learning to walk with my regular shoe and being more conscious of my walking, so I don’t limp so much.

This healing journey has taught me so much.  We can’t compare ourselves to others.  How one heals doesn’t mean it’s how I will heal.  What one person faces isn’t what another faces.  As individuals we can face similar situations, but each situation is unique to you.

Therefore, don’t judge someone’s healing process according to yours because each one of us have different situations.

I know acceptance comes from God not people.  My doing doesn’t make me accepted.  I used to volunteer for everything and wear myself out.  I learned after my fourth hip replacement you can’t over do its not blessed because it’s of the flesh it’s works not faith.

It is well with my soul because God’s plan is best for me.  I’m thankful that in this recovery time God opened the door for this blog and it’s reaching people.  I’m thankful for the support I’ve received from family and friends.  Good news is I’m healing and learning through this recovery season.

Have a good day.